I am sorry that I have hurt you. I regret even making you cry. If I’ve slandered your name; or taken your place. If I have told you a lie. If you feel that I have beat you up or stepped on your toes. You should know that my intentions were pure.

If I’ve ever shown you jealousy. If I’ve exhibited too much pride. I sincerely apologize.

If i was a nuisance in anyway; just know I’ve come in peace. Not bearing gifts. What a shame. I know. I truly am sorry.

If I didn’t spend enough time. If I have pulled away just when you needed me. If I ate it all and saved you none. If I made the better choice for me. I’m sorry.

I just know that when I say, I love you. Yes, I really do. I pray that your pain will be fair. Taking the backseat to the growth that I seek.

You see? I may not stick to your plan. I may step outside of the lines. Guess what! I’m working on me now. Of this you should be proud.

I just need you to know that I’m in love with this chick. She makes me glow when she comes around. So it’s hard to focus on you. No offense.

Please don’t feel down. She is just simply fascinating! I know how bad it sounds my friend. She has an immense hold on me. Try to understand please.

This lady she makes me want to kick bad habits. She said that with my spirit; I should spend more time. She instills a certain peace in me. She really makes me smile.

I don’t mean to be so distant; trust I do miss you. And I’m sorry.

Yesterday, I was standing in the sun light; it lit up the clearest sky. I’m drawing wisdom from the cosmos. I’m planning an escape. Trying to master my craft. I’m learning how and when I should put my magic to use.

I am busy realizing that I could love almost anyone. I am accepting the fact that all love is not true. I’m learning what love is and how it resembles insanity. Iam learning to be true.

What you get out of it lies with you. I know it’s a long and fascinating journey. I’ve learned that sometimes parts of it have to be let go.

I know now that not everyone can handle. The storm that is Me. Not everyone will understand my words. Most times when they’re looking at my storm. They most likely don’t see Me.

Not everyone will break your heart and not everyone deserves the chance to. Not everyone will believe in my dreams. Not everyone breathes romance the way that we do. But I do and I’m sorry.

I’m sorry if leaving to find me has become a hindrance to you. Sorry to stand here with the audacity to put me before you.

Please fear not. For a time will come when I will arrive at the place that I long to be. I will feel complete within myself. There will be a difference that the world will see. You will see.

I will come back home and I will play my role. I will be the best friend that you ever did know. I’ll shower you with truth. I will walk you to the door.

Yet, you should know; my lovely loves. One thing will remain true. There is no way in this crumbling world! That I’m gonna lose She trying to stand by you. I am sorry.

©2016 Coretta Brewton

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Hands shaking; legs restless. And this is before your touch.

Mind racing; heart pounding. Boy it’s just too much.

Heavy breathing, light headed just from your touch. Time spent waiting anticipating; the moment that I would feel your touch.

Ru’aah exposed, to the One that she chose. Call Him forth. His force must embrace us.

Body whole, and my heart filled; with the tahing I needed so much. Questions answered and dreams made true. All because of your touch.

Just like I had dreamed and just for me. A little taste of your touch.

The story written, and the tale told. Inspired by your touch.

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Familiar sounds hurt my ears. Familiar scenes hurt my eyes. Familiar pain brings new fears. Familiar seclusion tells me to hide. Nothing from me you wish to hear. This place I recognize.
Can you hear my mind weeping? My thoughts spew out as screams accompanied by muffled cries. I’m not surprised.

Can you see me? Are you listening? Do you even care to try? I wear this grief and it consumes me to the point of sheer disbelief. I give in.

I’m pouring all of me into a basket with holes; hoping that one day someone would understand. Can you hear me? Give it another try. Would you care to understand? Do you see me crumbling? Do you hear me pleading? Can you see me standing here?…..

Tears rip through the seams of Tightly closed eyelids; familiar flashes take me away.
I Am Light. Can you see me? Do you see my importance in any way? Do you see that distance has become apart of me? Does it matter what I have to say? Can you at least try?

Words are smashed inside of my brain; never ever a break through. Never a finished thought makes it through the air. Familiar feelings push me into the background. Feelings of coming second to all; leave me memorized.

Confusion over takes the peace inside of me. Offending you in every way. I’m standing in the ring as you’re enemy. Why does it always feel this way?

Quite your roaring Lion! Realize that I am a beautiful melody. I stand as a series of notes yoked together. You’re the bass that completes my beat. Settle yourself so that you can hear me.

Heart in my hand growing older. Maybe you could hold it for me? Maybe you could prevent the massive erosion of everything that this life force holds inside. Are you listening? Familiar sounds make my ears hurt. Familiar scenes hurt my eyes.
-KARDAYAH’S Soul 2016

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